It is time to exercise my authority...
Date: 1/18/2011 12:33:11 PM ( 10 y ) ... viewed 16023 times
I went to church on Sunday, and the pastor spoke about doing what is best for you and taking hold of your life by exercising the authority that God has given all of us. He says that we dont have to be bound and that God doesnt want us to be. He said that if we just do what God asked us to do we will be delivered from bondage. What does this have to do with me??? When I was 16, God impressed upon me to do a water fast until he tells me that im done. I didnt do it. Over the years he has been telling me go ahead and do it and I always start and something always comes up where in I feel that I have to end the fast. I am fast aproaching my 22 years of age and I still have not done what Im supposed to do. I have not progressed in my life in 6 years spiritually and physically my body has become very sick and as far as my life goes I bounce from one dead end job to another. I feel like I cant focus. I dont want to waste another year of my life. Six years has flown by so quickly and I dont want another six years to go by and Im in the same place in my life. So I started my fast today and it wont be about weight. I wont even weigh myself. It will be about doing what God has told me to do so long ago and getting to know Gods ways and his voice. I want to move on with my life. I want God to reveal himself to me. I want to know him like I have never known him before. I have a dilemia though. I have road blocks in my way even as I begin my fast. I have been invited to a birthday party at a resturant. I think that im going to talk to the friend today about what is going on and just ask her would it be ok for me to come but not eat. I know for some people it is a big deal for a person not to eat when everyone else is. I will explain that I have to do this. I will never get out of this place I am in mentally, physically, emotionally, academically, and most of all spiritually if I dont start and stay on the path God has marked for me to go. Also my 22 birthday is coming in March. I think that I may have to forego the feasting that usually accompanies the celebration. When I was 16 and God first asked me to do this, it would have been musch easier to do it. At that time, I spent much of my time alone and there would not have been people that would have noticed that I was fasting. I could have done it and my life would have been fuller and I would have progressed. I regret the past six years of disobedience. Im at the point where Im like I dont care if it is not ok with my friend. I have to do this. Im desperate. I dont want to die. Stagnate things, things that dont grow, die. Disobedience will result in death. I must obey. God has given me a choice and now, even though its six years down the road, I choose life.
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