Mon.3/25: Compulsed to Eat, Though Eating IS NOT OK WITH ME
The misery of being compulsed to ete. Not being respected or supported to REFRAIN FROM ETING
Date: 3/25/2013 2:51:49 PM ( 9 y ) ... viewed 6233 times
Needed to note that I have this chronic condition and I am in it now and IT IS NOT OKAY WITH ME
HOW can I EVER stop acting like this? -- Being MISERABLE and KNOWING eating IS THE WORST MOST WRONG MOST HORRIFICALLY SELF-VIOLATING THING I COULD POSSIBLY DO and yet still being compulsed to go through the hideous charade of going to the store . Getting fude. Slamming stuffing it into myself.
My drug dealers, the stores, MUST know how I feel
THE F U C K I N G NIGHTMARE of it all is that they would just SIT there and F U C K me telling me I had to be FORCED to ete -- that ti wasn't even Ok for me to RESPECT MYSELF AND NOT ETE
i will be getting sober fude today but it is still RAPE
god d a m n it f u c k I mean why is life so miserable? This is such a trap of helplessness. This is such a terrifying MISERY . To sit here COMPULSED to ete, and UNABLE to honor myself by refraining from eting.
Add This Entry To Your CureZone Favorites!Print this page
Email this page