Had a half/ half day with hubby yesterday. by thisaintascene .....

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Date:   10/20/2008 10:55:16 AM ( 14 y ago)

The day started out ok. We seemed to be close. Holding hands and touching each other as we were running errands and such. But the minute I bring up anything that is on my mind, he snaps. I know he is under a lot of stress because of our finances, but so am I. If we cant talk about it to each other then what do we have as a relationship. I am so torn. I love him so much, yet I havent been capable of a smile or laugh around him in a long time. I get all my chuckles at school or with the kids. Everything is so tense around my husband. It's like he is incapable of finding pleasure in anything. I want to spend more time with him to work on our marriage, but I dread the time alone with him. By the end of the night, he was sleeping on the couch again.
I have been making progress in my personal life though, Atkins is going well. I had 21 carbs yesterday. I have dropped 3 lbs since I started. I am enjoying the food. My Ketostix are getting darker. I'm not sure if it is related to Atkins or stress or both, but I am feeling ill this morning. I have a headache and I almost vomited. I nearly never vomit. I feel like I have the beginnings of a flu.
I was promised two vacant apartment cleans though for this week, it seems like the cleaning aspect of Handy Andy may be picking up. I wanted to go to the auction and get a car sign yesterday, but felt the cost was not a neccessity right now.
School is going well, the semester is half over. I finally recieved my financial aid award letter. It didn't specify an amount, so I hope it's enough to cover the bills we are behind on. I am getting decent grades, so financial aid in the next semester should not take so long to get.


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