YOU ARE AWESOME!
This afternoon, I was involved in something and thought of something that I should have mentioned to you, or that you may find helpful. Problem is, I can't think of it now. LOL If I think of it, I will come back immediately.
Anyway, any fears you have, just give them to your Father in Heaven, and let him handle it. He will cause you're His kid!
Bless your heart. You are not crazy at all. I used to do the very same thing And I used to talk to God too. It is very comforting. At that time, I was alone. My husband had died and I was left to raise two children. So I clung to Jesus for protection. And it worked.
Of course, I think of places also. But I have made my plans, but have to walk it out and wait for His timing and direction. Generally-speaking, I would stay away from ocean beaches, look for places with water, good growing conditions, away from nuke targets, etc. But, we might be just fine in a certain place...you never know!
IN HIS WILL IS OUR PEACE!
"God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind."
Fear comes from the enemy or from guilt because we've missed the mark or trangressed His laws/commands. If we have sinned, we have an advocate. We can ask for forgiveness, turn from those ways, and start afresh. I John 1:9 says, "if we confess our sin, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
Even sickness comes from violation of His laws, or something our ancestors may have done. That can be cleansed and healed as well.
I love this verse:
"In Him we live and move and have our being."
That's the only place to have peace, health, prosperity and LIFE. It's the Secret Place of the Most High!
The New World Order is coming to a corner near you - no one will be left out of the net. Is that too ethereal or esoteric? :)
Their motto is:
You can run but you can't hide (from the eye in the skye, eye of Horus)
Order ab chao - Order from chaos (chaos is planned worldwide)
One might find temporary relief, but it takes a passport to flee one's country of origin, and that will require obedience to the leaders also. You might even be easier to nab that way, I dunno.