raptor12
You always think the grass on the other side is greener. Well it isn't.
We all get depressed but you seem to have severe depression. You need to stop thinking too much. The thing i've noticed is that when you sit around doing nothing, you start to think more and that's when you get really depressed. Keep your mind occupied with other things like a hobby or something.
I feel for you man, but you're making it worse by feeling sorry for yourself. You gotta learn to live with it. I'm guessing you're in your teens and that's the hardest because it affects your social life. But shit happens. Nobody said life is perfect.