Any help from you wise people on curezone would be greatly appreciated, I really need any help. Thankyou....
I have contamination OCD & have a fear of touching many things in my house, the worst things make me feel sick in my stomach & anxious. Other things I worry that if I touch them, I can spread their 'contamination' around the house and to anywhere I go (including visiting friends houses etc). I have had contamination ocd for different things, for about the last ten years but these last few months have been the worst.
It makes my life a huge struggle to lead, and at nearly 30 I feel like it is ruining it. I never imagine my life being so shit at this age due to my ocd. I wouldnt wish ocd on my worst enemy, it has lead me into Depression
and into a life no one should lead.
I have only recently started to realize my problems stem from my gut - my medical history is a whole other essay.
My hypothetical question is this, if I were able to cure my gut through a combination of supplements, diet etc, I would still have all the memories of the OCD, such as
1. what I couldn't touch before
2. my ever lasting cleaning on my body rituals to be 'clean' before going out
3. what clothes i could wear at home (dirty) and what clothes i could wear out (clean)
etc etc (I am stuck in a rut)
I feel as if even if I cure my gut & get rid of where all this anxiety stems from, I will remember all these thoughts. I feel like my brain needs a MEN IN BLACK neuralizer and needs to be wiped of all these memories, as I would just continue to avoid touching or doing things because I remember how anxious & physically sick they used to make me feel so I would still be stuck in a cycle of OCD. So my question is this:
"If I sort out my gut and fixed it and got rid of the anxiety, I would still have the memories of ocd rituals. Do you think that something like hypnotherapy to wipe and change my thinking would help after I fixed my gut?"
I know fixing my gut is something huge, and that is where alot of my time reading is going into.
I tried CBT twice but both pschologists weren't too helpful.
So has anyone tried it themselves or has any thoughts or advice on this?
Thankyou so much for reading :)