suicide is the END of everything.


There is a myth about people who want to commit suicide. The myth is that something is WRONG with them. The exact opposite is true, something is VERY, VERY right with them. They are more conscientious, more ethical and more 'true blue' than most people. Their 'heart of gold' is more truly deserving than most people's of the removal of one letter (you'll understand). They tend to be more sensitive to all the pain, misery, suffering, corruption, cheating, lying, hating, etc. in the world and notice all the misfortunes suffered by others, but also, great is their constant disappointment in the world, and worse yet, they see that there are other people also that suffer their fate. So because of their repeated disappointment, they become depressed (reasonable, to say the least) and as a result, 'turn their laughter to tears and their joy to dejection' (just an expression,...unless you look in the bible, then you'll see that it's an attitude of Godly behavior). Lot was much the same (his heart was sorely vexed because of everything that went on around him).

Whether, at this point in your life, you have any interest in Godly matters or not, the only way you can hope to make sense out of reality, is to look at it in reference to a creator and the love and respect that we are to freely offer each other but very often it is not genuine. This failure to offer GENUINE love and RESPECT causes a great deal of disappointment in those who are sensitive enough to notice it, but if we look deeply, we can see that it's not because we're bad people, it's because the opposite is true, and we can now understand that the 'heart of gold' can be more easily recognized once you take away the L.