The guilt factor is really setting in right now. WHAT HAVE I DONE!!!???
I've been so good lately with my parasite
cleansing. But just a few days ago I went on a juice fast to try and clear up this ugly puffiness that has taken hold of my body just recently. (die off effect?) But I've been working triples and doubles and today after work I was really hungry.
My raw foods restaraunt (I'm 100% raw vegan) didn't have my usual safe foods that I love because they got slammed with customers. No taco chips (made with seeds and mexican seasoning) No pizza crusts (sprouted buckwheat) to make living pizzas with. No Savory Pie (a creamy cashew based pie filling with lots of veggies, olives, nuts on a sprouted buckwheat crust.) There are other entres I could have eaten that aren't as convenient for take out, but I would have had to wait a long time they were so busy.
So I went to the grociery store and got supplies to make a salad. It didn't do the trick! Still hungry!
So I caved. I went back to my restaraunt and got TWO pecan bars (their small), a carb fudgy brownie, and a package of Snowballs (coconut date balls w/ nuts).
I ATE ALL OF IT EXCEPT FOR ONE SNOWBALL (which I gave to my mom).
I was in sheer bliss while eating it and it made me feel so much better right after eating it, but now I have started to feel the familiar fatigue set in, and the muscle twitches and Depression
that take over awhile after sweets are consumed.
GUILT GUILT GUILT. But gee, was I in need of glucose! I sure hope that I didn't backtrack all my hard work with the parasite
I just hope I can make it through my double tomorrow without feeling like I want to slit my wrists!!!
Any words of encouragement are sooooooooo welcome right now.