Wow- yes, very much resonates with me.
I'm working on letting go of all my usual defense mechanisms
in my relationships with others- I no longer want to relate to
people with my old "I'm SO smart" or "I'm so cool" persona, but by opening up to my vulnerabilities, which I have decided can only be embraced (like the baby, they don't like to be ignored!)
And while I am consciously aware of my need to do this, its also terrifying!
Funny, I didn't think about that until you wrote it...
I also want to STOP putting my power in the hands of other people...that is my old habit- of letting others decide what is best for me. So I am having some trouble figuring out what to 'give' to others (i.e. vulnerabilities) and what to keep for myself (power, decision-making). Boundaries have always been tough for me.
Your last sentence about shaming of self is right on target, too. As I have undergone this HUGE process of letting go in recent years, I have really wondered what is left- what's really ME when I let go of all these things that I thought were ME? So, that makes sense that the baby is the me trying to emerge. But I am trying to ignore it and go on with 'normal life', which has always revolved around work (the shower?).
Thanks so much for your insight!
What dream book are you reading?
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