Don't do anything silly. I would be very disappointed if you did. Check out http://www.astro.com
it will help you get through hard times. I also rely on DIY Lifeplan Astrology by Lyn Birkbeck, he colluded with the Beatles during the 60's and is now an astrologer, he can't make money either but he still produces the most wonderful things which no-one will buy. While other people can't cope I get through because it is a Science that works. I think you know what I mean. It is not much, but I have studied it for years, I am not an astrologer but it is something that I have committed a lot of time and energy. Investigate it if you haven't already and fill your life with all that matters to you. I have Saturn in my house of friendships which means restriction and no-one is there for me. I am rarely lonely, but I am aware of my predicament. I find life disappointing but I keep on doing what life has led me to do. I hope you make plenty of more music. It happens to the best of people.