Celcius, I saw some of the posts you mention. It seems to me that he's searching for the Truth. He'll find it eventually I have a suspicion. He's trying to answer questions that only God can answer for him.
Amen-Ra, why don't you call God's bluff and ask him to show Himself to you? Whataya have to lose? If you are truly a learned person, you need to check out all the leads right? Why don't you Amen, ask God to show you Himself? It's not that difficult you know, all you do is say "God if you are real show yourself to me" the only crux is that you have to be humble enough to even go that far.
You go round and round Amen, but you don't appear to have reached a definite conclusion to all your questionings. We can only get you so far, we can try to lead you there, to the water, but only you can open your mouth and drink.
Remember Amen, God is not a divine rapist, he will not assault you w/ himself.