You don't really want to be happy. I've got a sister like you. She falls for the losers of life, one after the other, and then laments her lot in life at every family function. No sympathy from the Mtnnn Man here. Women who throw away a good man for a piece of feces deserve to lie in that excrament and suffer along with him. You want us to approve of your choice...i.e. he's more exciting and daring and, and, and. You are responsible for choosing a correct man, a decent man, a proper future father, a lover, a guy you can grow old with. There is no logical and sound reason to long for the opposite. If it makes you feel any better, you're not alone. Many women throw away their lives on losers only to regret it later...when it's too late.