Maybe you want to hear this from a guy, maybe you don't. But there's one thing I do know about women. Their first instinct, that gut feeling, is usually correct. But unfortunately, most women don't act on that instinct, they suffer. I repeat...They Suffer. That's what women do. They fabricate that it will all be better tomorrow. I play the odds in life. I examine what really is and determine what is best for the future, then act accordingly and never secondguess. Women have been leaving with a child for centuries, you wouldn't be the first to walk away from a "nightmare" as you've described. He isn't the one. You thought he was the one. But quite possibly...he's not the one. You've got to come to grips with that fact of life. Every month you wait you lose forever. Time is not your friend, it's your enemy. I use a ton of analogies when explaining my opinions and you'll probably get this one...from the financial world. If you invest your hard-earned dollars in what looks to be a good, solid fund and that fund starts to take a turn for the worst...what do you do? You have a couple choices. One, you ask for opinions from those who have been down this road before. Two, you stay the course and hope to ride out the storm. And three, you examine reality, swallow hard, and cut your losses. Where are you in this list?