rygar, i think the real question here is - why do you have such a roiling boiling under current of rage and angst? where does it come from? how did it get there?
Dont tell me 'well its just always been that way' or some such thing. This occurs for a REASON, there is a very real and very important reason why you have such rage inside.
My advice is to find a good therapist and get to the bottom of that. Unexpressed and undealt with rage will create blocks between you and other people and will cause you to feel alienated and just kind of "weird" when communicating with people.
You really have to go into yourself and face yourself. This takes courage and bravery, perseverance and trust. I suggest you also begin some type of spiritual practice, whether its meditation or prayer or church or whatever works for you.