Well I listen to all these sites about how bad meds are so I quit taking them abrubtly and went into a complete breakdown. I spent the entire day telling everyone off. Was it right, no, was it rational no, but I just wanted the people know they are hurting me. I need help not promises. I know I am sick but don't know what to do and I am so sick of everyone promising to be my friend. Real friends stand by you and help you.
I remember going to the last psy and sitting on the floor crying my eyes out as the doctor screamed at me. He assumed I was so desperate that I had to tolerate his behaviour. I looked around and everyone was a real psycho case, I mean they were really over the edge and it frightened me. I convinced a pharmacist to help me and he gave me some meds that were very low dose and I started from there, I reduced slowly and kept it sensitive. Every time I try to quit I get real bad and I so want to be free of them but just can't. It is real scary being alone and no one to help you but it is even more scary to see what happens when I am not myself. This is the first time in 25 years I ever told anyone about my dual personallity and I have hid it for so long and I did it to help others come out also. I mean I have never hurt anyone but with my words.
It is just so frustrating to always be a yes person, when will people realize that they are hurting people. Why would anyone pretend to be your friend, extract info and then go away like you don't exist? Am I asking too dang much?