You and jaymz are not the only ones who receive personal emails from other members. I have received plenty of emails regarding both yourself and jaymz but I do not reveal the content of those emails publicly on this forum.
If you and Chris want to discuss my life by email then keep it to yourselves. I'm not interested. I'm sure Chris does not appreciate you telling people here that he has been discussing me.
Worry about analyzing your own life and why you have the negative traits that you do. It seems like you have a lot of work to do in that department.
You need to let the mercury thing go. You also need to stop reinterated the same conversation over and over. I hope that LivingBlessed's prayers are heard and that you will be helped. Good luck and happy fasting!