Hopinso - I have much respect for you. We don't know each other well yet on these her boards - but I'm gonna put my opinion out there. I feel like I know a lot about this subject (we're all gurus in some way). Here's where I differ from some mono-theists. Cellular memory is my biggest proof of cyclic existence. We live in the nano-second. When we're in spirit, time on Earth looks like a blip on a map, like it must to God. IMHO, if we expand our consciousness we feel everything we've ever been through...EVERYTHING. It's my feeling that that expansion is what real love and self love are about. We experience the same lessons over and over again (with different faces) until we love ourselves and have enough trust to surmount them. I think it's 2 possibilities. 1) you're sitting in your own cellular memory or 2) you're open enough to be hearing someone else's 'tape.' Either way, from where I sit - your consciousness is expanding. It's human to feel fear and not necessarily empowerment. You're heads and tails above a lot of the culture we're surrounded with. I think that when we expand our 'isness' belief from this life to all lives and everything we've experienced and will experience that we're richer and fuller for it. Healing your self from previous 'instances' is just as important as taking herbs. Some believe that cellular memory has just as big a pie slice in our maladies in each life time as a worm we picked up some where. It's an interesting theory. Some believe you experience the memory stored in your bones from your ancestors. Either way - you're larger than you think. Congratulations! You're tapped in.