I was surprised by the text because I wrote to you about some painful subjects and private ones. The passing of my husband was so difficult and to discuss it online is a big step for me. I never in a million years ever thought that the death of my husband was a punishment from Allah. Just the oppisite. I thought it was a blessing as Allah took my husband home to be with him. I tend to talk alot about religion and forgive me as I don't mean to be so wierd. But if you knew me better you would know that I have lost everything in this world from the death of my husband, to the loss of my business and home to the loss of all my family. Many cats have entered the graveyard too and never once blamed Allah or thought I was being punished. Whatever is your destiny is to improve you to make you stronger to bless you. When my father died I told everyone that he was out of pain from horrible cancer. I believe that even inthe worse situation something good comes.
I had my car wreck in October so not a good month for me either. Sometimes we can reach inside us Hopinso and see what others can't see. It doesn't mean it is bad, but just God has given you a gift. Enjoy each day and be thankful for the simple things. I don't know what you are going thru and I can't imagine your pain, I can just say I am here for you.
I am sorry for the death of your pets as they are like family to us. They are in a better place as your family too. I am doing good and have just finished a month of fasting so that was so difficult on me but made it. My MS is in good shape and my brain fog is almost gone. I have been recently diagnosed with early onset dementia, so that explains my crazy moods. I can talk now where before I could not.
I had several dreams of death. ONe of them it was told to me that I would die the same way of my husband so it was a scary time. I wrote my will, etc. Well here I am still alive but I did get the dementia thing. So death can mean the death of a relationship or the death of a way of life. I was scared too like you but I waited and it all turn out ok. I went thru some pretty bad stuff with my stroke like symptoms. Loss of speech, memory and inability to think. But with alot of help and diet I came back.
I always look for your post. I wish I had the respect and friends that you do. I wish I was loved the way you are. Hang in there my friend.