That is what happens after you overcome sickness, and are aware of the crap that is out there. People pushin stuff for the $$$$. Makes me angry also, because many people are duped, and give up long before they actually find something useful. Do not get discouraged. Many people feel they are not loved. The problem is they are looking in/to the wrong area/person. I don't know why I do it but many times I think of good people I know but never call or spend time with them. I guess its partly my fault but theirs also. They could contact also. has to do with what type of friend you are. I will think of you on thanksgiving day. Thanksgiving is an american holiday...I thought you were in jordan? Could it be a case that you are home sick.