Well, that's great you know where you are emotionally on this subject!
Firstly, you are where you are and that's ok! Nothing to apologise for - it is only a practised emotional vibration.
The best way to proceed is not to try and make something happen. This exercise is not meant to pull in the right job/to create money/make something happen ... (although it will ... read on)
The whole purpose of this exercise is to change your emotional response/vibration. That's it. (But since emotions attract, just by changing your emotional perspective, you start a new pattern of attraction. See?)
Back to the emotional guidance.
Over the next few days, see if you can move up 2 emotions each day. Don't try and jump any of them, each emotion is important.
Frustration / Irritation / Impatience
Using your own words, just tap the things you are angry with. Go back and reread what you wrote when you scripted ...
I'm going to take the first section here, but you will need to do ALL of it ... break it down into tappable sections like I will show you as follows:
"When I think about work I get angry. Even though thinking about work makes me angry ... I deeply and completely accept myself. It makes me so angry that I should have to work for someone else, like a slave. Even though I hate working like a slave for others ..... I deeply and completely accept myself. I feel like there is no job I can do that I will like aside from my writing, Even though I don't think it's possible to enjoy another job like I do writing ..... I deeply and completely accept myself. and I feel like every job I could possibly do takes AWAY from my writing. Even though every job takes me away from doing what I love most ... I deeply and completely accept myself. There is no way I will have the time to work on my book and acheive my dreams if I have to spend my days slaving away at these horrible jobs. Even though I'm angry how I can't spend all my time doing what I most want to do ... I deeply and completely accept myself. All of these jobs make me feel bad about myself and hurt my self esteem. Even though these jobs hurt my self esteem ... I deeply and completely accept myself.
Now, you don't have to use ".... I deeply and completely accept myself" each time .. you can think about how you might like to feel instead .. such as "... I choose to feel calm" or "I choose to forgive myself/others" etc.
Is it clear how to use the emotional scale with the tapping now?