Been where you are, and still am. Been at the place where I didn't want to live anymore. AF takes a good bit out of a person emotionally, socially, professionally, finacially. It can feel like the end of the road. However, I think people with AF get better. I have post it notes all over my mirrors that say, "I will get better!" I've had severe AF for a year, but I think I'm getting better, as of the last 2 months. It's tough because recovery isn't linear, there are starts and stops, and a step backward for every few steps forward. I first started improving when I found out about CureZone and started following the suggestions here. Also, it helps to know you're not the only one, and you're not really going crazy!