thanks for your reply, I have to say you pretty much hit the nail right on the head with everything you just said
as far as a firm diagnosis, no I have not. The closest thing I have to diagnosis is "myopathy and muscle wasting of an unknown origin"
I do not have a spouse or children so that part is not relevant to me. but as far as feeling like "I want to but I can't" yes that is right on. Also the feeling of my talents and abilities not being appreciated and not standing up for myself is very accurate