Dr. Hulda Clark had some advice and remedies for toxins in our bodies that affect our moods. Toxins produced by enteric bacteria, Shigella and some E. coli cause people to feel anger, depression, anxiety. Our minds don't know that the feeling are coming from the body so we become obsessive about external problems - in your case and mine it is childhood abuse. I did Clark's Bowel Program and started with high doses of turmeric (see recipes online) and within a few days the Depression lifted, anxiety was reduced and I realized that I did not become obsessive about old hurtful situations.