Re: I Changed After My NDE
I was not married at the time when I died and I did not have any children. My strategy for raising children is to direct them to be kind to others and to never participate in or send their children to war.
I have failed at three marriages. Meeting The Light did not make me a good husband. I am always helping other people and I am often accused of helping others before taking care of my own. My exes might say I am a hypocrite. I am not a saint.
Most people, other than my exes would probably see me as a good intentioned person, a bit over the top and a bit strange.
I have few friends that see me outside of my work as a teacher of the blind.
I have a network of hundreds and maybe thousands of people, who I have never met, because of my writings and a radio show I do. People who believe in kindness as a religion are dispersed in all types of religious, non religious, Agnostic and Atheist circles of people. These are the people of my tribe or soul family.
What is different about me? Before I returned from my NDE, I was a soldier who hated and thought G-d hated:
Non-Believers in Jesus(excluding Jews)
People of nations who opposed Israel
People of nations who opposed Non Catholic Christianity
In short, I believed anyone who did not believe in Jesus was an evil sinner who would burn in hell and those who were believers, were immersion water-baptized and asked for forgiveness of their sins right before they died would go to heaven ; those who did not would go to hell and be punished for eternity in a fiery hellish torture chamber called hell and would never be released from that pit...ever... Before my NDE, I believed G-d hated anyone who did not hold my ultra-conservative and xenophobic world-view and that gave me permission to hate most of humanity.
I was in the military at the time of my NDE, where we soldiers and think tanks plotted and schemed to murder people of other nations for a living. Even after work, I would simulate infantry, tank, and aircraft battles to better prepare me to kill G-d's enemies. I was a murderous spirit.
As a teen, I almost daily fantasized about flying a sail-plane with a nuclear bomb attached into the Kremlin, as I believed nuking the Kremlin would end Communism and make me a hero of G-d. I paid for flying lessons by delivering newspapers. I joined the military to become a true deliverer of G-d's justice and vengeance on the enemies of G-d.
Prior to my NDE, I believed the Pope was the Anti-Christ and how people who were Catholic were being swayed by the Anti-Christ into Liberalism and that G-d hated liberalism. I believed that when Catholics died, even though most Catholics were well meaning, all Catholics would go hell and burn in hell for eternity they would never ever escape. Some few Catholics may have even been good people but they would go to hell none the less.
I visualized, there would be a final world war where all the Atheists and Communist nations would be exterminated by my nation and Israel in Armageddon. We believers and Jews would nearly be utterly destroyed but Jesus and an army of angels would save the day. The battle would occur in Iraq and I believed the few surviving soldiers who believed in Jesus would be mostly destroyed before Jesus would come and destroy the enemies of G-d and Jesus.
I believed there would be a rapture of true water-baptized, Christians and all Jews who would convert. The rest humanity would be put through 7 years of tribulation where life would be miserable. All the people lest on earth would either convert or die and go to hell for eternity.
I believed, I should do my part in destroying G-d's enemies and believed in rounding up all drug addicts, homosexuals and homeless people to exterminate them, as G-d hated them.
When I was baptized, at 11 years of age, I came up out of the water... I heard angels cheering and a male voice said to me, "He is set aside!" The angels rejoiced again. I came to the conclusion when I was a teen to defend the underdogs(Christians and Jews) from Liberals, Muslims and Communists. I thought this was my high calling... to be a warrior for G-d.
Privately, I believed that I was set aside to bomb and kill millions of Communists. I also would have been just as willing to do the same against the Vatican. I publicly said I believed all homosexuals should be rounded up and put on an island and nuked. I also said, Iran should be turned into a sea of glass and all Muslims should be exterminated. I also said, Americans who were liberal should be hunted down and assassinated. I was a sociopath, who given my chance to kill, who would have been labeled a psychopath... but... on my way to a military training where we were plotting a war against Iran... I died...
Part I - Going to the Light
Part II - Journey to the Light
Part III - The Ultimate Expression of Love
Part IV - Return to Earth
Part V - Returning to my Body
I met a being in my NDE who I call The Librarian //www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=563422#i
on my way back to my body, who I believe is the G-d of this world as opposed to The Light I met in heaven. I have, since my NDE, called The Light(The sum of all loving kindness). The being I met right before I entered my body I often call G-d or The Devil or The Librarian as he plays by a different set of rules than The Light. In my opinion, from my NDE, The Light is the Father/Mother of our souls but The G-d of this world is the Father of our physical body. I still beg the G*d of this world for things that die because I am partially physical but I reserve my religion for The Light or loving kindness... Is that confusing enough?
In the end though, I believe The Light loves the very same people I thought G-d hated. Still I am just a fallible man who has failed miserably at human love. I still know I do a good job of smiling frequently, laughing with vigor and helping others with kindness. I know these things survive this world. My failures will die but love never dies.
Was that way more information than you wanted? Jejejjejje