You are certainly not an idiot, you just did what you need to. Plus, despite knowing what's going on in the medical field like we do, when someone assures you it's ok, you want to trust them. It's a helpless feeling dealing with these things. It's not as simple as there being something wrong in your body you can correct, but rather there is something IN your body that is preventing good health. Sometimes all the juicing and herbs simply wont work.
I know that here on curezone taking drugs is not popular. I feel the same way about 98% of the drugs given out, and the desecration of human bodies when natural means could save organs. However, if I thought there was a magic pill that would make these things go away for good, I would take it - then flood my body with nature to correct the damage, and move on. In my case, it's just not that simple I'm afraid, and I would have to take so much of the drugs it would kill me. I've got very persistant little worms in me.
I hope it works out for you and you get your cure. Good Luck!