Let me start off by saying that I am not putting the blame on these forums, Humaworm, or anything else other than myself. But, I will say the biggest mistake I have ever made was ever having discovered these forums. I'm well aware that the information provided here by others have helped countless of people get better, but in my unfortunate case, the information has helped me to ruin my life at 26 years old.
I am now more that positive that the Wormwood contained in the Humaworm cleanse that I did throughout the month of June has permanently damaged a part of my nervous system and brain. Immediately after the cleanse I was feeling better, but since then everything has drastically gone downhill. It all started weeks ago with what was major anxiety and depression, but within the last week or so has turned into nothing more than 100% pure apathy. Everything that used to make me happy in life no longer does. I no longer have motivation to do anything. I barely want to be around people, and even my best friends I've had all my life. I've been through depression, and this is certainly not that. This is completely foreign to me, and the best way I can describe it is that it makes every waking day feel like a complete nightmare. It has caused me to drop out of school, and will more than likely cause me to lose my current jobs. Whatever was wrong with me in the first place that led me to these forums, I will never know. But what I do know is that even with all the symptoms I thought were making my life crummy before, my life was 100% better before ever taking that cleanse. Everyday I wake up and want this all to be ever, but something in my gut tells me that just isnt going to happen. I'd love to believe that this is some sort of prolonged die off, or temporary side effect, but I know it isnt.
Physically, there arent many issues. Other than the fact that I used to be able to jump out of bed at 8:45 in the morning...and now, even at 1pm I'm struggling. Its not the physical aspect thats keeping me from getting out of bed, its the mental part. Theres still a faint ringing in my ears that has never gone away, which I know has something to do with my brain. And although I have no problem falling asleep, I will sleep for about 4 hours, then wake up once an hour after that.
Living life this way will deprive me of everything that a normal life is supposed to have. I will never have a family. I will never have children. I will never make new friends. Its just not possible with this state of being. And the worst part of it all is that theres no one that can help me at this point. Whats done is done, and I'm well aware that any nervous system damage is very permanent.
All it would've taken was for me to simply have the Wormwood emitted from my order, and I wouldnt be in this mess. Even after being well aware of the dangers, my despiration to get better and not finding one single reported case where someone was affected like this led me to believe that I'd be ok. But how wrong I was...