Suicide would be a weak way out, this is totally treatable mate. It will take some time so just remember that. People on this forum only look for quick fixes. Unfortunately it took some time for the body to get in this siutation and it will take some time to turn it around. Just be aware of that. Start doing some juice fasting and colon cleansing. colonics etc. Pump in regular probriotics. If you need some more guidance PM me..