I am sure you will eventually get there samann.
It was easier with John Armstrong because he had the experience and conviction to assure people and they listened to him and were guided by him. Today we have thousands of alternatives.
Keep at it, keep trying different things, keep coming back to UT fasting.
The worst thing about modern society is that we want a fix as rapidly as possible with as little effort as possible. You have put in a big effort, no denying that, keep going as you feel you should.