I am sorry it has gotten so bad for you. Please don't give up! :) I wanted to share with you that I know people who have recovered from pretty bad cases of AF/CFIDS/ME. Some of them I know in person, and some are online friends I've kept in touch with through this forum and others. A few of them were worse off than me, and I've been housebound and couch bound on and off for three out of four years of AF. I'm starting to pull out of a deep phase of weakened health, and it's pretty great. I keep a list of links to stories online of recoveries that I look over on rainy days, maybe it will give you some hope as well. If you're interested, I can message you the links.