I just re-read your post, thank you for all of the advice, I am slowly working through it and doing some research.
One particular thing that got my attention was your comment about anti-depressants. I have had to be incredible strong to stay off them, but I now fully understand what you are saying about them. Unfortunately a distant cousin (who I was very close to) took her life 2 days ago, she has been dealing with Depression on and off for all of her life. She was trying to help me and was so supportive of me getting better, no-one knew what she had planned. I am very sad of what she did, but I hope she has found somewhere happy now.
She is my motivation to kick Depression in the face next time it spikes up! That is what she would have wanted x