Hi, i'm a girl and i know exactly how you feel. I been through many different phases in my short 19 years of life and yet everything the same. it kind of like i change but somehow i go back to my old self and old habits. I eat horribly but i want to stop but for some reason i put off learning how to eat healthy. It sucks! I don't have friends but one that i have known for almost 15 years. I rarely see or hang out with her becuase she still in school and now has a job and of course a life. All the while, i'm at home feeling and smelling like shit. it's feel like my life is passing me by. but then there are times where i feel that there is hope and one day i can live a wonderful life. it a cycle over and over agian. one moment it's Depression the next it's motivation and the cycle keep going... Today, I'm in the motivation mode but who knows what can happen tomarrow. Keep on going and don't give up! Hope you the best friend!!