Please do not be offended, but your posts are all over the place. You don't seem to listen to advice, and I don't believe you have stuck to any program long enough to get some relief.
A short program will only cause the problems you have.....it will stir things up and make them worse.
You blame Humaworm for your scattering one time, the next it is from being prescribed steroids.
Taking one drink from your water bottle did not infect your children. in fact, either one of your children or your husband could have infected you.
You don't need hospice, you need to stick to a program, get through the horrible die-off, and come out on the other end of this.
You mentioned being comitted in December, there is a chance the meds they gave you are very wrong for you. making it harder to be rational. You have to listen to others and take charge, or you will only get worse, and lose your family as you have indicated.
I don't know how this all started, or I could offer some guidance......I understand you changed your username, so you history is lost. This info would be helpful to offer advice.