I have a cousin who is in prison for molesting children. When he was 19, he was having an affair with a 13 year old boy. When the 13 year old boy was in his 30's he had a nervous breakdown and went into therapy. What came out was that he was molested by my cousin when he was a child and it was messing up his life. He couldn't hold down relationships. He was really messed up. His therapist encouraged him to report my cousin, who was in his forties, married, with two kids, and had a great career making a whole lot of money. So the guy who had the nervous breakdown reported my cousin to the police. My cousin was arrested. It made the news. When the news got out, 10 more people came forward and said my cousin had molested them too. He ended up getting 27 years for multiple counts. He is in a prison with 800 other men who have been arrested for molesting children. It seems consensual until you start looking back on it many years later because your life is falling apart. It is a crime for you to be having sex with this man, even if you consent. I am not saying this is right or wrong. I am just saying that if he loves you and you love him, both of you must wait until you are both adults, or you are committing a crime that could result in him being convicted~ even without the rape. The rape makes it exponentially worse. I realize that young men are hardwired to express themselves sexually, and it is a very difficult time of life to be in your teens. But if you don't go to school, study, make good grades, learn how to relate to people your own age in a non-sexual manner, and develop yourself consciously, you could end up having a nervous breakdown many years later because you don't have the life and relationship skills to be happy and successful. And that is why what you are doing is a crime. If you do nothing else, I hope and pray you will get counseling, so your life doesn't get messed up for good. I wish for you to find true love, a sense of safety, peace of mind, and happiness. Are you bisexual or gay? How did you end up getting into a relationship with an older man so early in life? When was the first time you ever had sex? Not necessary to answer these questions unless you want to. Just trying to give you some things to consider. You deserve to be loved and respected, not molested.