My train left that station 30 years ago. And after a childhood full of the brainwashing and required faith that only sounded like 'turn off your brain, stop asking questions, just believe me, no matter how unreal this sounds or your soul will GO TO HELL' to me. It just felt like they were trying to manipulate me and control me, and my thoughts. So I kept on going, still looking for a more real-feeling and better spiritual solution.
I finally found it, but it has nothing to do with that empty religious shell and people trying to convince me that I should just turn off my brain and have more 'faith' so a 'loving 'god' wouldn't send me to hell for all eternity. Geez--so loving. Reminds me of many of the abusive dads I used to counsel. Forgive me if I pass. Glad it works for you, though.