Re: critical advice: who to trust - nutritionist or on my own?
Well I don't know exactly what to advise for you, but I get exactly what you said about being depressed and suicidal so often. It's a really really really hard battle.
I like the being-inside-a-kafka novel idea. Being the victim of something terrible but can't for the life of you work out exactly what...
I have suffered with "something" for eleven years now. I was convinced it's candida (and I definitely have that to some degree) but a practitioner I saw recently believed that what has been coming out in the toilet, which I thought was candida, isn't at all.
So I at least have candida AND something else. Just desperate to know exactly what and how to fix it.
Trying digestive enzymes next to see if it improves my energy and mood (I've had success with both Betaine HCl and Apple Cider Vinegar before meals - since my problem seems mainly based in the stomach).
Anyway I really get how hard it is. Send me a private message if you want to discuss.