I read your message that what you have written is true. Depression is the reason for thinking of suicide, and this thought usually comes to everyone. But this problem is fine till normal level. If you get more thoughts of suicide due to some reason then it is not a good thing. Because having Depression is injurious to mental health and this can cause a lot of health problems. So if you want to deal with suicidal thoughts, then you have to decide for yourself, that whatever Depression you have you find a solution for it and solve it from a positive point of view. And share your problems with that person who have a close and good relation with you. Also if you want to take break and you have still facing a issue with your suicidal thoughts then sober living home is also good option to spend time there , because that place is so good for health, where you get the all rehab treatment to recover from depression and my friend also benefited by going to the sober living home.