I know exactly what you mean. Iíve been researching and researching and coming to the realization that they prescribe ivermectin for the coronavirus will really get your brain turning. God bless you I also was practically suicidal with the symptoms of the parasites. I recently found out I had them for 30 years since my tour of duty in Korea. The last 20 years it has been getting progressively worse, brain fog, anxiety, depression and when I stopped self-medicating and really wanted to get down to the root of it the research began. I ended up getting treated through biomagnetics which is basically muscle testing and north polarity magnets.
I have been excreting these things for two months. The day off will definitely make you feel suicidal but I have been fighting knowing my life will be changing soon . Anyone wants any more information on biomagnetics you can look up a practitioner in your area or send me a message.