Oh, my heart goes out to you, christinabdnr! It sounds like you're going through a tough time with your boyfriend. Long-distance relationships can be challenging, and it's disheartening when the spark starts to fade. It's natural to feel uncertain about the future and hold onto hope, but it's important to prioritize your own well-being and happiness. Perhaps it's worth having an open and honest conversation with your boyfriend about your feelings and concerns. Remember, communication is key, and sometimes difficult decisions need to be made for the sake of both parties involved. Hang in there, and know that you deserve a relationship where you feel valued, loved, and fulfilled.