Published: 17 years ago
RE: Great attitude Wilson!
I love that idea wilson! You see, I have been battling my food addiction for the longest. I have gone 14 days on the MC. I cheated a few times though and I did lose some lbs.
I just gave in to food, and I tried to get back on track but kept failing. I wish that I can isolate myself from food and from friends and from things that remind me of food. I work 2 jobs and live with my mother and siblings. It's really hard to just not be around food. I have to cook all the time and when I am home, I have to be around mommy's home cooked meals :( I really started being very disappointed in myself because it's like, food has a certain control over me, and I just can't be strong. I always succumb to temptation. I want this so bad, I am so prepared, I have all the ingredients, but everytime I start again, I'll eat. I don't know what to do next... I can't afford to just sit home without work for a couple of days and start the mc and even if I did, I still have temptation around me. I am trying to prepare myself mentally, I KNOW I can do this!!! Like at the end of the day, I always think to myself how all that junk I ate throughout the day was so not worth it and how I could've sat here celebrating the joy of detoxifying my body and not cheating, but ... I guess not. I don't know how I'm ever going to get back on this cleanse. I keep saying tomorrow but when tomorrow comes, I try to find something else to not do it. I am so upset with myself and I come here a lot for support and I read other's posts about success and it makes me feel miserable about myself that I couldn't accomplish that one good thing for myself. My next day to start, Godwilling will be Saturday, August 12th. Wish me luck everyone, and please, I look forward to a lot of support. Thank you and Good luck to everyone that is going through with this.