I am 47 years old. Since I was 13 I have had problems with mb* and later on with P*. I found a wonderful sweetheart. We have been together for 23 years now. But I am still fighting this great monster, which is called CS now and obscene phone calls. I am a christian and know what I should do but until now I haven´t managed to completely let go off the adversary and allow christ heal me. I want to fast and pray myself, but find myself very weak at them moment. Please LORD, allow the right people into my life, so that I can finally be healed from which I surrender.