Re: jinxed or cursed?
You have learned to expect these "roadblocks" in your life from an early age on and because of pastlife traumatic events your life dreams were shattered and you lost all hope of a better life. However, you have allowed these roadblocks (meaning your higher self has) so that each time it happens you receive yet another opportunity to move out of the victim role mentality and illusion that there is an outer force, power or influence that is greater than your own. Your virtually attract or magentize these events, not because you don't deserve any better, but because you do. It is a big lesson step for you to finally free yourself of the heavy burden and limitation of failure. There is no failure, only different ways to grow. Your fear and rejection of yet another failure manifest new ones, so that you learn to diminish those fears and attract a different reality into your life that is closer to your life's purpose.
I suggest you read Freedom from Judgment, 1stbooks.com, which contains the codes and frequencies to assist a person in this effort. If needbe, you may also wish to take advantage of Sacred Sacred Santemony to help balance out the trauma from your past that is behind this all. The bottom line is that you cannot be attacked, used or controlled unless you allow it for reasons that you are not aware of, so that you do become aware of it and learn to rise above it.