yes, I agree that my 'crush' is totally about ME
I see this person as a very educated, world-travelled woman
who still maintains an openness to people and an idealism
about the world, even though she is well aware of its many faults.
Even in the dream she was
This is EXACTLY how I wish to be, and I don't feel I am there at this point.
I think I am currently going through a process of letting go of my past, or letting go of feeling that I am ruled by it-but it is very true that I have not yet succeeded.
Right now I am bringing everything up from my past- things that I wasn't really consciously aware of before, and examining it, just like the stones floating around me in the bathtub. Great insight that I hadn't thought about.