Although I have my doubts about some aspects of this church, I still attend. If I leave, it would probably be for some other type of Unity, or New Age type of church. Raised Catholic I've had enough of dogma and ritual. For now I will remain there.
As I see it, the dream was showing me my state of denial by refusing the pin(s) without even looking at them. I mean if I were to wear such a pin, wouldn't it indicate that I "believe" I have a guardian angel? In retrospect, I realize that in denying the existence of having such help/support, my ego/pride was trying to take all the credit. Marj