hey. and you know taking a vacation doesn't have to depelte your finaces.. it can be as simple as jstu planning things fo ryurself to keep your mind form thinking on thise stuff..get out and evne jstu get fresh air/ go on nature walks/go watch a paly or go read a book in park and take along a snack you liek the best..
go out fo ran evenign with a girlfriend or get together and rent a movie and make cookies or something.. buy a new cd and paly it and prcatice new dance moves even ifyou never go dancing you can dance at home !! 8) the main thing is don't waste the mind eneergy on thinking about what he is doign or not doing.. don't run up your phone bill callin g him... yo uwill look desparate and clingling.. tellhim to cal andleave a message he is ok.. etc. the last thing you need is higher phone international bills !!
learn to knit sew a new top/ read on growin gyour own herbs start to paint .. etc.. grow and open your doors/ grab a camera and take pics who knows you might be able to mat and sellthem at a consignment shop/ etc. practice new hair styles/ etc have fun !! ahppy holidays