Re: That's normal...

Thanks so much thinker. Your responses have been so helpful. You are right about the triggers. I am always thinking about it. Always. But sometimes I see something that she left. Tonight I was doing the wash and found her last towel in the laundry. It smelled like her. God that made me sick. Friends and family have been super supportive which is wonderful. Everyone was just so shocked as they knew how much in love we were. Those that had met all parties all seem to agree that the mother must have been a huge part of this. None believe my ex would have ever done this on her own. And they all tell me that if she was really scared enough that the restraining order was her idea, then it was someone else who instilled that fear, not me. None of this brings her back though. It has been a rough day. I'm waiting for one that is not... Tweet