sorry to hear about that, dude. like the other poster said, it was probably awkward for her to be around you as well. read some of my posts down below. i've almost come to the conclusion in my own head that continuing my relationship with my gf isn't worth it anymore even know we arent officially broken up. she's called a few times in the past days but i didn't pick the phone up. it's been tough, but ive made huge steps. in the time i've been away from her - i just finished a book ive been meaning to read, made some new friends last night, fixed a problem on my car that's been plaguing me for a few weeks, and am taking steps to join a gym and take a welding class this week. having a journal to write all of your thoughts in helps a lot too. stay busy, become a better person from this. she'll regret loosing you once if she ever sees the person you have become. keep your head up, bro. there are others out there.