Re: angry and remain silent
you dont need therapy. these people do. im serious on this. what you need to do is stop looking for approval from other people and everytime someone upsets you intestionally of not, just let it go and dont get upset. cause what you get upset they feel they have won and they feed off your anger. cut them off and remain distant and feel the hurt they caused but dont get angree. when you get angree you loose your "cool" your center. and anything you say will always come out bad and will come to haunt you and will always be thrown at you. that is the reason you remain silent because in the past you have gotton upset and said things to that person and you were always the one to look quilty like your wrong for yelling at them. these people are professionals, they know how to pley the game quite well.
an example. rick tells bill that hes a queer and laughs. bill gets really angree and tells rick to shut up with a angree look. rick looks at bill like "whats wrong with this kid", while bill feels like he did something wrong and gets depressed. bill never talks back anymore because he knows he will probably be made to feel like the quilty one for trying to hurt rick.
thats just when your dealing with people that want to hurt you emotionally.
so resist getting up set and you can say what ever you wont because it wont be out of anger and you cant be made out to be the bad guy. like i said you just need to work on not getting upset and remaining a little distant from people and not look for the approval. these other people are the ones who need therapy. and if these people seem happier than you, its just "seems" like they are. they dont know how to not get so upset because they are always looking for the approval and are emotional people so their life is like a roller coaster ride up and down up and down. once you leane how to controls your thoughts and feeling its smooth sailing, always. forgive them farther for they know not what they do. if your a bible man. if not its still the same. i was just like you, now i always speak my mind. people get mad at me because they cant upset me. they want the attention they want you to love and surender to them. sorry for all the grammer mistakes. keep practicing, it gets easier and easier with more practice. so these people are doing a favor for you by giving you lots of practice. take advantage of it.