Re: Am I in denial or is it just wrong?
I understand your fear. I found the one at 18 and lost him and never found another. It is not true that there is someone for everyone. I am 59 now, and I ended up alone, and it still hurts...but that is literally a long story. (400 pages, acutally. I wrote a book about it!)
His old girlfriend took a 3 month vacation...and it worked. It ended a relationship that was a dead end for her. Having him be the one for you won't work if you are not for him. I hate to tell you that, but its true. Of course, you could take step back from him a little and take a vacation while you are still there....just by keeping busy and not doting on him so much. You could try counseling if he will go, or go alone (I sound like Dear Abby here). Where one lives is not really so important if your life is full of love and the things you want, but if moving to a nicer area would help, there must be one somewhere where you could go to school. I don't know what state he lives in, but there are schools everywhere. I think that location is being made into a bigger obstacle then it really is.
It is hard to give advice when I am not there and know so little. Only you can determine if the pluses outweigh the minuses. But he sounds like a man who can't commit. It sounds like his old girlfriend happening all over again, like this is a pattern with him. So you might want to keep that in mind.
Do watch Walk the Line. Watch it again if you have already seen it and study her. June Carter was a woman of incredible inner strength, personal dignity and integrity - at least she was in the movie. I was very impressed with her. Your situation is different, but you both have difficult men to deal with - and she won her battle. She got him to walk the line. Of course there was a great deal of love and attraction there on both sides. A strong karmic bond. What does you man need to balance him out? Can you figure it out and can you give it to him?