Published: 17 years ago
Re: Should I let go?
Well, I am feeling better about this today. Thanks for all of your input.
In reality, I need to change my life. There are a couple things I need to work on as well as things that I need to do something about. That's what he's been doing for himself for the last year or so. Rather than just letting life do whatever it wants to me, I'm going to take control. Whatever happens in the future is dependent upon what I do now. Maybe he senses that I need to work on myself and this might be a way for him to make me see what I need to do. By living in the dream that we would be together might have been holding me back from what I really should be doing.
I think I am going to remain friends with him. Friends in the sense that maybe once a month, give him a call, not like my close girlfriends. I still think I am going to go to the town where he is because I have other people I want to see there. That place just always seems to draw me back for one reason or another. Whether or not I see him is another story. I see what he is saying, and I don't want to mix up the emotions with the physical. But, I think its more than just physical. Maybe its just physical for him and both for me. I'm not sure if that could ever change, but I sure do hope it will.