I can relate to that feeling. Lately it seems I've been really able to see through people's motives and own agendas - how they fit it to Christianity. And, it is sickening!
And it's really been on my heart to study the bible for what it is, and not always reading into it our own agenda's and doctrines. By doing this we've really come to see what a lot of church doctrine is, and that it is false.
That is one of the reasons I chose to do my ladies study on the 'Samaratin Woman'. To me, in that story Jesus' love and grace is portrayed perfectly. And (including myself) I think we all need a good dose of that reality.
Jesus didn't go around condemning people by saying "...choose me or go to hell and burn..." We've somehow got it so messed up through the last 2000 years!
Of course that is what happens when you mix man into God's plan, and come out with organized religion that make the church into a building....
And of course it can only start with each one of us and own personal convictions.